NYC Awaits

My inticipation grows as the week is nearing its end,my girls are getting excited as we are leaving this town behind,as I imagine the events that are going to unfold I am ready to face them.My vision of what will transpire is as follows.I cannot believe I have to work,the day is Thursday.I walk into the place I call work knowing my bags are neatly packed at home how can I hold back the execitement knowing in 15 hours from now our plane will touch down in a place of no surrender,where things move as fast as you can blink your eyes,we are about to embark on a journey that will last our lifetime in memories,no commitments no agendas it is just lay back relax and shop.And shop some more.For we are going to the City Of Blinding Lights,where sleep is not an option and the girls are about to let loose,what transpires here will linger amongst us and us only.But I will take in the emotions of a broken City ,that has seen all of what the world has to offer,I will extend my hand at least once to try and help make a difference.I am excited beyond believe and I will photograph all that is befor me as I come to your domain in which the girls from Toronto will own for a few moments in time.To the Gals in the N.Y.C enjoy yourselves and remember we only have 1 time in 1 life.To A.P Brad 10/14/2009

Smelly Noses

Everyone has or knows one,someone who has there head so far up someone elses Ass for there own selfish reasons,I have a couple they were part off my life for a short time but no longer,how fake is fake,you do as you can trying to make a life of happiness.I say to everyone who lives in this repetitive type of friend.Let go move on my friend,dont look back,the mountains are moving and our lives are soaring.When you are up against the world sometimes its good to launch your battle,but I choose to launch my life once again.So please if you can all get togethetr and form a line,one behind the other,bend over and stick your Smelly Noses up one anothers Ass.This is to all the Smelly Noses who have been in my life lately.Brad 07/16/2009

Tree Watching

I look out and gaze upon the world looking for answers and explainations,Everyone passes by often not giving me a glance, or a second look.Alot of the times I am looking for a friend someone who can try to understand my suclusions of loneliness and it seems noone cares,I look off into the distance of a busy life drifting by at a speed of sounds pace, and hope that people take the time to sit and reflect on the importance of life,I have seen many people come and go and where I live there is no Anger,Violence,Hurt,Pain.Every neighbour of mine sits and stares at each other with a suttle smile as we know this time is going to pass also,I wait for the next generation of people to see if some of lifes behaviours start to change but it seems it is only getting worse.I am a tree and will continue to keep Tree Watching over you all.

Think What Needs To Be Thought

Why is it we allways think about what needs to be thought.But the thought does not need.Is there a reasonable explaination.A thought passes through your mind thousands of times daily,however how many of those thoughts were acted upon,or spoken of,of course some of the thoughts would be very embarassing to be expressed or pursued.Can you imagine the kaos if we acted upon each thought.We think of thought act on not and hide behind our walls of thoughts.Waiting for the right time or moment to act upon a previous thought.Brad 04/21/2009 Just a stupid little thought.

Passing By

As we walk through the days of each year,we all pass the clock,holding our wants and needs in our hands,struggling to achieve what we each feel neccesary.Spoken moments left unsaid in uncomfortable situations,some good some bad.We settle for what is current not seeking what really speaks to us.Shadows linger behind all of our eyes waitng to be seen or noticed,say what you need to say but try not to hurt others in doing so.Just remember we have all been young and have all done foolish things in which we cannot erase,but if we can make peace,then we can move forward.The spaces that separate us all are closer together than you may think,you just have to lean forward and reach what your hand wants to touch.It seems we are allways Passing By.Brad 04/07/2009

Home

Its a place that so many have not experienced and I feel fortunate to have.It's not a roof over your head or a place where you eat your dinner,it is a place inside of each one of us, a place that sometimes you go with others and sometimes with yourself.We each have our own interpretation of what we feel home should be, and it is you that has to figure that out.Security,maybe a place of safety or even a feeling of belonging.To me it can be anything but a structure.Have you ever thought about those things of comfort in which you sometimes recall or taste or smell from day's gone by,like Zest soap at Grandmas in the bath when you were little, now everytime I smell Zest it gives me that feeling.Or maybe a precious memory of something from years ago.Does it make you smile.What about everyone walking about on a special holiday with the smell of food cooking in the oven.A place you are allways welcome without hesitation.Your own world of isolation to be with the only one who really know's what home is (you).Wow this quitting smoking is getting to me.Brad 03/05/2009

The Stare

It lingers between two people, a feeling of unknown mystery,lust,comfort,security for it has many meanings.Have you ever experienced the stare between two lovers a look of knowing your being looked upon,up close or at a distance, when two people share this moment you become one.The feeling of your subconcious telling you that special person is looking,do you stare when your eyes connect, wink,or smile, it is not a choice but that moment in which all of your surroundings disappear.The thoughts crossing between separate minds speaking and understanding in the same tongue without words or mouths moving.If you have or ever find this stare there is a deeper feeling than you realize.It usually starts starts somewhere between your toes and works it's way into your stomach, where it often feels like many of creatures flying around.It then becomes a mental and visual stimulant where you crave that person every moment and see every moment of your future,you start building and continue to build.And to think it all started from The Stare.Brad 03/03/2009

What Am I

I approach and place the order as the phone rings,people coming and going in a frenzy everyone is late for someone else.Finally you are in my hands I think as I struggle to open you decide to give me a hard time oh please not today as I cannot handle early morning frustrations in this way,as I toy with you a little I seem to have fixed you,slowly driving away I hit the speed bump putting you back in the ring, pushing you back in the corner I am holding you down struggling, you realize with hesitation you have nowhere to go and give in to submission.I drive away stopping at the lights lift you up towards my mouth and you pop out of place again this time splashing my face,I tear you off and smile another battle you have lost.Brad 03/02/2009 My Tim Hortons coffee tab,don't you hate that.

Kicking The Habit In The ______

Today is the day I decide it's time to try and kick that habit in the ass,I allready feel like ____ and want to scream,my nerves are fluctuating somewhere between here and far,These habits consume our inner thoughts retraining our brain to what it wants,it kill's us all eventually and leaves hurt behind that is in no way changeble, if such a word exists,I remember the first day smoking a piece of ground filth and was so sick I turned green,Did I learn no.Sometimes I think we are all just blind to our surroundings as I know I am a ____ of alot.This talk of this habit is making me crave and fight to the bitter end.Will power lies to me every second or so telling me everthing is going to be okay,as if he knows this isn't affecting him what so ever, other than the fact it probably drags him down alot due to energy loss.Mr.______ Temptation well he is a piece of ____ wanting me to give up all other things in life obviously,because I will not be here to enjoy them if he wins again.A selfish ,personal consuption of filth is what he is and I will battle him today as many others do,or at least for this moment.Well on to the next moment.Brad 03/02/2009

She Inspires

A quiet frail little person holds the weight of many on her shoulders,she struuggles for an explanation from above and it often comes with no direct answers,she radiates smiles and glowing beams of forgiveness in her heart fighting the hurt inside, she feels at times noone cares but everywhere she goes people stop and stare,she lights up the room of all earths fires ,when she walks in without saying words,she has climbed many obstacles in her short life and makes so many proud.If you have the pleasure of meeting her and getting to know her you will find that this world has not changed her or caused her pain ,but the people that abandon her have,she has all the goals of a champion and is one day going to set that hurt free,the battle is just begining for her and I know her strengths will keep her straight.Brad 02/27/2009

Humble Friendships

A friendship is something to appreciate and something to develope and nuture.Have you ever wondered what a friendship in our times of living is,and does it exsist or are we all living with fake costumes on the outside as our inner thoughts speak words of jealousy or deceit.Helping a friend is reaching out with no expectations of glory or praise,no boosting or commenting to others for your own gratification .Friendship is the understanding in times of pain or confusion.We often are riddled with so many of our own problems we forget what is important.Have you ever shrugged off a friend in need due to your own selfish wants.Loyalty, is there such a thing or is it us feeling guilty of circumstances in which we did not create.What ever it is some friends come and go but I think that when distance is put in the path of friends and a phone call seems like you had just left off it is probably the closest feeling I have had in friendship.Brad 02/27/2009 As mick said in one of his movies "To All My Friends"

Chasing Bee's

She pushes the door open as the wind is trying to hold back,almost as if it locking her in,as the door opens she moves forward with her left foot first.The cars in the parking lot driving looking for their destination of stance,as she slowly makes her way through ,approaching the street to where she lives,walking with a smile for today is a summer day no care in the world,sipping on her juice gazing down on the street,she takes the time to think about what is important to her in that moment.A neighbour lifts his arm with a wave and a discreet smile cracking the aged mans face,he nod"s a wink and a smile is returned.A group of teenagers working on an old beat up car performing surgery to try and get it's heart beating again look as she passes,ten steps before the curb a flying creature latches on to her drink hoping to feast on the sweetness of the juice,as she panics to her phobia ,she becomes oblivious to her surroundings and steps off the curb badly twisting her ankle,limping home she arrives and explains the situation as we laugh it seems no matter where she goes they are present,almost as if she is Chasing Bee's.Brad Feb 25 2009

I Am Here

The day was awaiting patiently on the two occasions of your lives,the excitement was greatly anticipated by us,we are nervous and anxious to gaze down upon you and hold your soft skin close.You are my little Rockstars and in you I have given me.Time is so often hard on outcomes and moments not changed,but carry the memory with you allways as I walk through your steps.Protect the ones you love around you and remember they are you.Ask as many questions about me as you can and do not ever be embarrassed to ask, for I can only tell so much and hope you understand as my time is almost over.I will reach out and be watching no matter the place thats awaits.The boy that turns into a man and is not allowed to be a boy any longer,the daughter that will need others to live inside memories for her.The Mother that moves forward by no choice.Think of me allways and remember I Am Here.Brad 02/20/2009 For the once little Rockstars.J and M

The Burning Within All

As she lays on the bed her eyes moving with wonder waiting for the moment to pass,reflecting on those things once takin for granted,we can try to understand but will not, for her path is hers ,shared with many others but often secluded to herself.The reason for this unexplainable pain on a daily basis not known by even the best of best.The numbness in her mouths speaks with a slight hesitation ,as each word is carefully thought out before being released,the legs weak at times,the vision blury,but moves forward angrily attacking what is trying to take over.The worry calls to us that are close,her destination of distance is over Sea's.Today I am thinking of her and hope she is safe ,sheltered from the cloud of pain that lingers over her head waiting to pour down the next storm of uncertainty.The battle is all up the mountain side may her rope catch her fall,and stop The Burning Within All.Brad 02/03/2009 For my Dear Friend thinking of you.T.W

When The Night Falls

The night is falling on a snowy day,The frost lay upon the windows as the cool wind gasps for another breath,off in the distance a cry of the wild lingers with echoes overhead.The moon slowly starting to rise to its destination, a course that it lives daily through no change or redirection,as if it has known where it belongs all along,the stars glitter with shimmering light,I step forward to the path of my work,each step in exhaustion from the days events,I slowly walk back and forth lifting and throwing within each movement,I endulge in a mouthful of cool crisp air between motions,as the biceps cry out in anger,I quickly ignore thier madning complaints.The road is echoing of in the distance and it seems you are right beside the tires that are tearing through the snow.The softness of feathers fall from the sky leaving a damp remnance behind.A salt water tear glides along the side of my face only to drop off into its distance.All this happens When The Night Falls.Brad 02/03/2009 Shovelling The Driveway.

Angels Amongst Us

They are usually the ones sitting at a table laughing,with smiles that seem to be endless,onlookers often gaze in wonder of curious conversations wanting to join in.It is allways said to walk a mile in someone else"s shoes but more times than never we find ourselves ignoring the right thing.For these people in particular amplify positivity to many.As the hardships are nowhere to be seen they hold them in their hearts as if their body and soul we two different people.They don"t complain nor will you ever hear them speak ill,for the things we take for granted that go on in our lives,these people have worn more than glasses.From a loss on unexpected turns of events that seem to have no ending, they strive forward with the attitude of life,the inspiration and admiration can only be known if you are close to them.May everything turn better for these special friends,and may you join in on the laughter that surrounds them on every occasion possible.They are truly Angels Amongst Us.Brad 01/29/2009 For my special friends.B and R

It Was Noticed With A Smile

There it is I say,as I reluctantly show the meanings of truth in my own perspective,its anticipated with the notion of negativity,can you hold the blame,I cant, let it out and it may seem like I am gone into the distance which usually happens in times like these,as I run for the door it seems so far away,is it possible the hallway out will not end,please,please come quick as the patience is wearing thin and the legs are shaking,yelling lingers in the background and comments aloud.At last the way out is golden, my kingdom awaits a few steps away,as the door opens a gasp of fresh air hits my face and all I can think about is please do not follow,chants linger in the distance as far away from that moment I am,it all could have been said in a diffrent way,but the day after it was noticed with a smile.Brad 01 26 09.

Our Own little Idiodesseys

We all have them,some more than others,some that stand on the outsides of our souls and some that lay deep below the surface.We allow them to come out when we choose to share them or when unexpected situations occur,identifying them allows you to recognize and correct those of ill.Cut from diffrent cloths we all intertwine in one way or another,but all have developed those things we dont want to be familiar to us.Sit back and take a very good look at your world of perfection and you will see.We all have Our Own Little Idiodesseys.Brad 01/27/2009

They Run

They run throughout the underground of their world,working under the microscope of their superiors,some are workers and the ones that are not, are royalty. In their own little world,tunnels stockpiling and consuming all in its path,for the seasons seem short of the efforts that are needed.Fire has ravished through our homes in abundence of unexpected proportions,some were lost brothers,sisters, parents and friends,but we raged forward with determination to rebuild what was lost and are now stronger than ever.We will allways survive somewhere,if not here.To the people trying to steal our rights to live in an equal world where we are all respected and loved.I leave you with this They Run.Brad 01/25/09 I wrote this for Bones who is having a major Ant problem in his Backyard.

The Walls

As I sit here in a dark place of uncertainty I know the outcome will follow,Where is the path leading,and what is held waiting for me.The part of not knowing is a sweet mystery that I can help but not think about.One day at a time a struggle of happiness lingers softly in the distance,I am trying to extend my arm to grab it as it pulls away into the distance.I am catching it at the finish line I guess but sometimes seems as though the race is repetetive.Maybe help is the answer do I speak out or keep this quiet.Will the embarassment hurt more than what I feel now.No I cant I will keep it to myself and mask the pain as though I am all wrapped up and noone can see me until I am opened.Sorry that I must go I wish I could explain all the answers before hand but it seems I cannot.So this is goodbye.Brad 01/19/2009 The feelings of a dearly missed friend.

It's Time

Do you ever sit back and wonder what your life has become,has it paved the road for you that you had thought was going to lead you.Or do you sit and ponder the choices made,some out of moments, and some for others,have you ever wanted to be more than complacent,do you sometimes feel that life molds us into the boring paths of direction lead before us.Have you ever had a dream or an impulse to do out of the ordinary,and if so have you.Have Dictators ruled your Kingdom of uncertainty only to search for their own outcome or greed,I find the forces amongst us have a very bearing on what or who we become,the realization of systematic behaviour dwells within us all.For money will allways flow for the rich and the poor,some in abundance and some in small amounts,who is happier,the rich that allways strive for more wealth,or the poor who allways strive for more wealth.It seems that their is no happy medium in a world of greed that consumes not who we are today,but who we were.We learn what we are taught and taunted by daily,but at one point we were so innocent to change,and did not ask to be burdened with the ignorance of this world.But had to go along with it to survive.It seems at some point in age something turns on your switch and says "It's Time".Brad 01/15/2009

Lifes Uncertainty

It seems throughout history lifes lessons and obstacles are put in front of you to test what you are made of, sit back and look at things, and steps you can take to overcome what you feel may be impossible,there is nothing you can't do and everything you can,Be rid of outside shadows of negativity and jealousy and move forward with big strides and leaps.Of course hurdles are allways in lifes path,but it is only you who can chose to jump over them.Nothing is to gain without suffering.Sadness surrounds us all but happiness only surrounds those who choose it.We as individuals are responsible for our own happiness,and every individual has the right to be happy and create thier own happiness, for what is right for one may not be right for another.You are the person driving your machine of life and if it runs out of gas it is up to you to refuel it.Brad 01/13/2009